Q. How come you don't update your blog very often lately?
A. Because I am sick, dizzy, depressed. But that doesn't mean I don't check for comments ALL THE TIME.
Q. So what kind of doctor haven't you tried yet for this illness?
A. I have not yet seen an iridologist (hubby wouldn't go for that).
Q. Which means . . .
A. Yes, that means that I HAVE gotten acupuncture. Last week I officially joined the porcupine club and I have to say that I AM A BELIEVER! I actually saw him for some tailbone pain, and not for the illness, but he has done miracles with that. No, he didn't put the needles THERE, but put them in my hand and foot. Amazing. I'll tell you more if you're interested.
Q. So what have you learned in this year (or two)?
A. I've talked a little about that before, but here's what I have to add a year later:
I don't know anything about anything. (Squat about squat.) But comments on my blog sure help.
Q. So have you received any "compensatory blessings"?
A. Yes. And don't use that phrase.
Q. What's wrong with that phrase?
A. I don't like what it implies about God. Like he has to make up to us for letting us go through hard things? Or that he likes to bait and switch: "Aha! You were asking for health but I gave you healthy kids instead! How do you like that?" But-- but-- I can't deny that I have received them. And that I treasure them. But I don't want to think in terms of trades. I don't think God would ever want me to be thinking, "These healthy kids sure are nice, but I would rather have health." Or, "giving up my health is worth it for these healthy kids!" Face it, lots of people have both, darn it! And lots have neither! I don't like looking at them as being connected and--heaven forbid--interdependent.
Q. You sound ornery. Don't you have anything nice to say?
A. I still believe in the blessings I've received that I will get well. I am just very, very discouraged. I still need everyone's prayers. Please.